Tag: trauma
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Daily Prompt 7/23/24
I have not kept the tradition of abuse and the silencing/dismissal of children as inhuman and incapable of reasonable thought. Looking back, I can see that this is the thread of my upbringing that I have needed to pull for years. This is something that has never disappeared and they both continue to treat me…
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Healing
The blockage is still there inside me. I am not sure why or what it relates to, but I am starting to feel that there is a trauma that is unacknowledged, unspoken, and definitely in my way. It’s taking away everything I enjoy like writing, and even the optional lacrosse practices that I committed to…
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Too Deep
I’ve been feeling really good lately. It’s taken me so much time to unravel everything that happened in my early years and how utterly awful my parents were to me as a child. It feels like it’s all finally come together and I feel better than I ever have. I think about parts of what…
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Solving the Puzzle
After that great college reunion where I found those lost pieces of who I used to be and still want to be, I spent some time being happy and feeling relieved because I found myself again. And then I told my therapist all about it. And because she’s great at her job and one of…
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The day has finally arrived…
So it’s father’s day. The day that I really didn’t want to deal with. I haven’t heard from my father in forever. If I don’t say or do anything, that is an assumed act of aggression. If I don’t do a big to-do, that means I don’t care. And if I was to do a…
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Pieces of me
Going to my last ever (as we know it) college reunion this past weekend was one of the most defining moments of my adult life. It felt important to go because I knew so many people that were also going, but I also wanted to take the time to savor the moments I had there.…
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Father’s Day
Father’s Day in the US is coming up soon. I feel a way about it because 1. my father is a jerk and 2. because it feels no more appropriate to apply to me than Mother’s Day does. In a way I think they are both stupid Hallmark holidays. Mother’s Day felt really weird and…
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Updates and More
I keep jumping on, writing a post, intending to get back at blogging daily but then I don’t. I can’t really figure out why this keeps happening. I started out the year strong, but got distracted for some unknown reason. Maybe it’s just that I got really busy with kid sports and life. Maybe I…
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Shaking off the dust
It’s time for me to get back to regular writing. I do miss it, but it’s been hard to get my head back into normal routine lately. I don’t really understand why I am struggling so much with writing consistently these last few months, other than working through some pretty old trauma that hurts a…