Tag: ptsd
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focus, Focus, FOCUS!!
My ADHD brain has lost its way. In the last few days I have left a huge trail of destruction through the house, been unable to finish tasks, and have been daydreaming more than ever. Today was no different. I made a mistake that was so cringeworthy that I am hesitant to repeat it here […]
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R. Kelly
I’ve been watching the Surviving R. Kelly documentaries the last few weeks. At the time all of his abuses were coming to light, I was sort of out of touch with it. My life was always kind of nuts in the early 2000s. I do recall hearing some of it and that no one believed […]
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On Adolescence
Boy #1 will be 20 in May, Boy #2 will be 17 in April, and Boy #3 just turned 12 in November. I really feel like Boy #3 and I have so much in common. For example; our sense of humor and the things we find funny, the way we relate to people in general, […]
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Daily Prompt 12/19
Is your life today like what you pictured a year ago? This is another good question! Yes, it does look very similar to what I had pictured a year ago, especially because all the stuff with the VA came through. I wasn’t really expecting that so soon. I initially put my claim in almost a […]
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Neighborhood spy
I am hyper vigilant and have been for awhile. I’ve been told it’s related to PTSD. But it has turned me into a neighborhood spy. I can tell you all about our surrounding neighbors because I notice everything. I never intended to spy on them and it’s not like I stare out the window all […]
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Stepping Back
When I first started thinking about retiring from the Air Force, I had so many ideas about what I wanted to do. A huge part of me was considering applying for this recall that would give me two more years in the Air Force. I felt like I needed that security blanket, like I wasn’t […]
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Wisdom
I actually learned this a couple years ago and when I can stick to it, I feel so much happier. Forcing things has always led me to chase things that aren’t meant for me. When I’ve gotten those things, it doesn’t do anything for me. Or I realized that the path I was on was […]
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Weekend Round Up
This weekend has been a whirlwind of adventure. I’m over 40,000 words on NaNoWriMo and my story is shaping up nicely. I will be done early and I will definitely be over 50K words. It’s always amazing when I can actually write an entire story like this. I have too many unfinished projects on my […]
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Processing
When I first saw that I got 100% from the VA, permanent and total, I was in shock. Then I was happy. Then more shock. Then happiness again. I think I have been on this rollercoaster the entire time since I found out. I got the packet yesterday and read the entire thing twice. It […]
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Now I love the VA
I was screwing around on my computer last night for no real reason. Looking up that kid from the daycare, I guess. I realized that I had just given up on my VA claim about a month or so ago and I stopped checking. I went from checking twice a day to checking twice a […]
Zander's Inside Voice 