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Inner Strength
I’m here. I’m surviving. And in some ways I feel myself thriving. The key for me is digestible small chunks of information. No doom scrolling, no freaking myself out with hours of reading the news on various platforms and social media accounts. The key for me is to preveng panic because that’s what takes away…
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Built for right now
I’ve been thinking these last few days about everything I have been through and how it was hard at the time in most cases, but how some of these things didn’t feel as hard until after the fact. Like in the moment I was just surviving and pushing through, not realizing that one day things…
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Current Situation
So… Things are rough in the US right now. I go back and forth between fucking BRING IT and absolute and total fear for these next four years. Honestly I worry more about Child #2 than myself but the absolute worst possible case scenario that anyone can dream up is pretty awful. Concentration camps? Arrested…
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New Year’s Resolutions, Yay or Nay?
Usually I try to come up with some resolutions prior to the new year beginning. This year I decided not to do that after seeing a content creator joke about how we shouldn’t make any resolutions until we get through January of the new year and feel out the vibe before we decide what to…
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So here we are, 2025
I’ve been thinking that I need to get back to blogging for awhile now. So much has changed and the world around us is so different than it was just a few months ago. I felt a strange aversion to blogging, like it was just too much work. That’s not true, it’s never been true,…
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It’s Real!
Last week I finally took my name paperwork to the probate court to start the process to change my name. I can’t believe I finally did it. It feels crazy to think that just a few years ago I thought all of this was impossible. But it is possible and I am doing this. I…
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Motivation or Distraction?
I’ve watched this documentary on Prime a few times now. It’s called Bad Faith and it talks about how to religious right came to be and how they used Trump to achieve their goals, mainly around abortion currently. Overall it’s a very informative thing that I would recommend everyone take a look at. The reason…
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Back at it
Last night was my first time back at lacrosse practice since surgery. It was easy to be there and I didn’t feel tired while I was there. I feel tired today, however. I hate how surgery takes away stamina for daily life and activities. I don’t think I am excessively active normally, so it seems…
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Dueling Journeys
Here’s a timeline of my journey to become Zander: Age 4 – I vividly remember sort of waking up and becoming conscious of myself as a person, a male person. I started choosing my own clothes and toys and I remember loving Spider-Man and other superheroes. Age 8 – My parents bought me a pink…
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Daily Prompt 9/29/24
The hardest personal goal that I’ve set for myself is to heal from my traumas and get to a better place mentally and emotionally. I used to react more than choose how I would respond to triggers. Now I try to be deliberate about how I will react to most things. Sometimes I still react…