Category: The Real Me
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Stop holding it all in
(Mental note to self-it does not help you to hold in your emotions. You know this. You have learned this lesson repeatedly over the last three or so years. Just stop already!) I woke up yesterday and right away I knew I wasn’t feeling like myself. Something was off. I was cranky but for no…
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Daily Prompt 5/31/23
This is a great question because I AM going to change my name. I am changing it to Zander after a very lengthy audition process over the past year and a half. I tried out some other names in my head but nothing really stuck. As a kid I always loved Sebastian, Simon, and Timothy…
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May 30, 2007
Sangin, Helmand province, near the Kajaki Dam…one Chinook helicopter is shot down, supposedly by multiple rocket-propelled grenades (RPGs). I was there, 30K+ feet above it all. We moved to assist the recovery operations. The helicopter had been on fire when it crashed so there were definitely no survivors. Then there was an ambush on the…
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Daily Prompt 5/26/23
I also want to say that I have no possessions that matter as much as the people and pets in my house. But that’s inaccurate. There are a few things that I wouldn’t want to lose, like my computer with all of my writing from the past 2.5 years. I also wouldn’t want to lose…
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Not Today
For the first time in weeks, I have nothing I HAVE to do today. No appointments, no commitments, no soccer practice, nothing to do outside of my house. What a wonderful gift of a day. May has always been hectic because it’s the end of the school year where I’ve lived since I had kids.…
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Daily Prompt 5/20/23
I have sacrificed the best years of my life, my sanity, my health, my fitness, time with my kids, relationships with friends, and so many other things. Military life is all about sacrifice, but so is being raise as a people pleaser. You sacrifice your own happiness for everyone else’s comfort. It’s exhausting and never…
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OCD
I have a lot of issues with the way Hollywood portrays Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. It doesn’t look the same for everyone. It’s not always about obsessive cleaning and organizing. It’s so much more complicated than a ton of stupid rituals or constant checking on things you know you’re supposed to do like lock the door…
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Daily Prompt 5/18/23
It honestly depends on what we are talking about. There are times where I really know what I’m doing and no one can tell me anything. But sometimes I feel a little unsure of myself and want to see what other people are doing. I used to put a lot of pressure on myself to…
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Memories
I suddenly started thinking about a boy from my earliest days at school. We called him DJ. He definitely would’ve been labeled with ADHD and given meds at this point in his life. DJ was a huge part of my life without him even realizing it. I was raised as a people pleaser, so I…
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Bad Blogger!
I have felt myself fading from blogging the past few days. I’m not even sure how long it’s been. One day? Two days? After my January break from blogging, I wanted to be consistent. I love stats and metrics, so I love when I see that I’m on some super long streak. But at the…
Zander's Inside Voice 