Tag: family
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Inner Strength
I’m here. I’m surviving. And in some ways I feel myself thriving. The key for me is digestible small chunks of information. No doom scrolling, no freaking myself out with hours of reading the news on various platforms and social media accounts. The key for me is to preveng panic because that’s what takes away…
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It’s Real!
Last week I finally took my name paperwork to the probate court to start the process to change my name. I can’t believe I finally did it. It feels crazy to think that just a few years ago I thought all of this was impossible. But it is possible and I am doing this. I…
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Dueling Journeys
Here’s a timeline of my journey to become Zander: Age 4 – I vividly remember sort of waking up and becoming conscious of myself as a person, a male person. I started choosing my own clothes and toys and I remember loving Spider-Man and other superheroes. Age 8 – My parents bought me a pink…
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My life as a morning person
I’m the first one up and out of bed this morning, but not because I jumped out of bed and got right up. I have a 3 hour lounging limit and I woke up at an hour that starts with 5, which is a real bummer on a Saturday. But sometimes I can sleep in…
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Daily Prompt 9/27/24
The trait I value most about myself is my charisma, or my rizz as my gen z/a kids hate me saying. It’s taken me my entire adult life to even realize and acknowledge that I have charisma. I have thought for a long time that I am introvert and need to be alone and away…
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Daily Prompt 9/26/24
I would shrug and move on, as long as I still had all the people that are important to me. I’d be bummed to lose pictures of me as a little kid and things that belonged to family members no longer with us, but I would be ok. But I do not want to lose…
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Dear Dad, take 3? 4? 5000?
I have spent so much time in therapy working through some really complex feelings about my father. I have spent even more time processing the various interactions we’ve had throughout my adult life and just how toxic he is towards me. It’s been a long, painful road. Lately I keep seeing social media crap about…
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Growth
I’ve been in therapy continuously for almost 4 years straight. It will be 4 years in January. I did some therapy online and with a military therapist on base prior to starting for real in January 2021. For me, I wanted to change things once I was retired because I could. I no longer had…
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Becoming Zander FOR REAL
I have been gone for a long time. I was stuck in my own head and in my own healing. I have been doing therapy every other week this entire time and really taking a hard look at my life, who is in it, and what changes I need to make to be my best…
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Thinking about the past
There was a neighbor kid I played with for 4 years or so. He was a little bit older than me, maybe like 5-7 years older. I don’t really remember how old he was, just that he seemed way older than me. When I was really small, I thought he was fun. He knew a…