Category: inspiration
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Big Deal
I am still learning this. My internal monologue always tells me I am making excuses or making a bigger deal out of something. I have to work at turning off that voice or it will tear me to shreds every day. I am susceptible to gas lighting because of this internal voice. I already struggle […]
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Blooming is blooming
This morning I woke up early and in a great mood, which says a lot since I was cranky last night. I had soccer practice with my younger team and they frustrated me to the point where I had to remind them that being at practice is a privilege. One that players who choose to […]
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Disappointment
Definition – sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopes or expectations. I have never, in my entire life, been so happy to be disappointed. I had the phone call I posted about earlier. It was going well until he dropped the bomb that to use the benefit I am approved for, I […]
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Why Me?
So often when I think about the question “Why me”, I think about it in a very negative way. Like someone upset with what’s been done to them but some psychopath or why they have to deal with an illness or condition that sucks. For a long time I have been trying to reframe the […]
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Being Present
One of my greatest challenges is staying present in the moment. My mind wanders often to the past, dredging up mistakes I’ve made, stupid comments I’ve said, and times when I was a complete asshole. If I’m not stuck thinking about the past, I’m looking at the future trying to figure out what comes next. […]
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We All Have Gifts!
I spent a lot of my life being average. Average height as a little kid. Average weight most years, sometimes really thin. Average grades. Average family. Average athletic ability. Average to maybe below average creativity. I was just solidly average in so many facets of life. At times I was higher than average at school, […]
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We’re all beautifully damaged
As I started on my journey after retiring from the military, I spent a lot of time thinking about my VA claim. It’s a ridiculous process where, after 20+ years in the military and going to the doctor just enough to take care of the most painful things, you have to fight for everything that […]
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The Narrative
As I get older, I am starting to realize that we all have a running narrative in our heads. It tells us who we think we are, what we believe we can do, and how we interact with the world. I don’t think it’s as much a psychological phenomenon as it is a sociological one. […]
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Personality Types
I’ve become fascinated with the Enneagram. If you are unfamiliar, it’s basically an ancient personality test that tells which of these 9 personality groups you fit into. The cool thing about this vs Myers-Briggs, or any other test is that each group has a spectrum you fall into depending on how healed and functional you […]
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