Category: The Real Me
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Daily Prompt
Big events over the past year, huh? Well, Boy #3 had his first band concert playing trumpet about a year ago. Then he won second place for mental math category for his grade at the math-olympics. He had a great school year last year and this one has started out amazing too. Boy#2 had a […]
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Seekers
I listen to Glennon Doyle’s and Abby Wambach’s podcast sometimes. I happened to listen to it today and yesterday. Or was it two days ago…it doesn’t matter. Both days were an interview with Sarah Edmondson, former member of NXIVM, who escaped and helps out other people escaping cults and religious groups. Now I love learning […]
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Letting go of what never was
As I continue to think about my recent discovery about food being a positive connection to my father, I move forward. I am now in a place where I can see several things that I didn’t realize as a child or even as a younger adult. All of these realizations have been swirling around me […]
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Two halves make a hole
I am learning to live as one whole person. I have been living my life as two halves-one is the outward part of me most people know and see. The quiet, kind, caring person who goes out of their way to help everyone. The person who doesn’t seem to have much personality and just kind […]
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sitting in my shame
Yesterday I had to do a VA exam for part of the claim that was initially deferred. But because I’ve already got 100%, these exams don’t even matter. I can’t get any more money at this point unless I lose a limb. But I still feel like I should finish all of these open exams […]
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definitions
How does a dream start? Where does a dream come from? How do you figure out what your dream is (or dreams are)? How do you know what you are meant to do in life? We are defined by our jobs and our families and sometimes what we believe in, but what really are those […]
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Stepping Back
When I first started thinking about retiring from the Air Force, I had so many ideas about what I wanted to do. A huge part of me was considering applying for this recall that would give me two more years in the Air Force. I felt like I needed that security blanket, like I wasn’t […]
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My Misery
I can’t go too deep into myself very often because it hurts too much down there. It’s where the deepest traumas live, where the pain goes when I have to push it away for just a bit because I can’t cope with it. It’s where the question of “Why did I have to be born […]
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Mitch
Years ago I had season tickets to a college football team in a city nearby to ours. I love football and I decided to get season tickets the year the college brought back their football team after decades of not having one. I grew up with my dad having season tickets to our local college […]
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The Things I Want to Ask…but won’t
Why was it so funny to you to pick on me and make me feel small all the time? Why didn’t you trust me when you were the one who couldn’t be trusted? Do you even know how much you hurt me when you put me down in front of everyone like that? When you […]
Zander's Inside Voice 