Category: The Real Me
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Too Much
It’s all too much today. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. There were 5 conditions that the VA deferred and they don’t really matter anymore because I already hit 100% with the conditions they rated earlier. Now one of the companies they use for appointments is calling me and I cannot answer my phone right […]
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Wisdom
I actually learned this a couple years ago and when I can stick to it, I feel so much happier. Forcing things has always led me to chase things that aren’t meant for me. When I’ve gotten those things, it doesn’t do anything for me. Or I realized that the path I was on was […]
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We’re all in this together, part II
A long time ago, and sometimes in my lifetime, there were very rigid sets of expectations for how men and women must behave. It applied to what types of clothing were acceptable in public, occupations (except in war time because there’s no rules during war time apparently), who did what with their children, hobbies, etc. […]
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We are all in this together
I am naturally a very curious person. I like to know why and how things happen. I really love to learn and figure out new things. One of these things I really wanted to understand was the TERF (Trans- Exclusionary Radical Feminist) mindset. Being AFAB at birth but always wanting to be male, it never […]
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The Last One
This leaf is the very last one on this tree in front of our house. I looked all around the tree to make sure and it was. It makes you wonder why this particular leaf refuses to let go. It’s hanging on, stronger than all the other leaves that dropped just because or when the […]
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The Truth
I’m still sick. In fact, today has been worse than yesterday. I spent some time on the couch watching a documentary about the bad Chicago. I learned a lot. Mostly that my favorite music of theirs is from an era they’d prefer to forget. Weird. I’m way ahead on NaNoWriMo. I’m averaging like 4000 words […]
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4 months
I am just days away from hitting 4 months of blogging. This is crazy for a bunch of reasons. I had tried to blog in the past but I was scared to put myself out there, so I would create blogs, write a couple posts and then abandon them because it was too much. I […]
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Somebody else’s life…
I love Boy George and Culture Club. I have loved them since I was about 6 years old. The whole idea of a boy dressed like a girl didn’t even strike me as strange. I liked their songs, their voices, all of their music. As I’ve gotten older, that hasn’t changed, although I understand so […]
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How to be Human
These are just a few of the things spinning around in my head these last two years after military retirement and figuring out who I really am after 20 years of being mostly the same as I was and the same as everyone around me. Learning not to fear failure and not being who I […]
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Crowds
For years I have struggled with crowds. But sometimes I can handle it. There’s never really been any way I can accurately predict when I will suddenly be unable to handle a crowd. I have been in huge crowds at Disney World and been fine. I’ve been in a smallish crowd in a living room […]
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