Category: The Real Me
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the Help abandons me
today I had a therapy appointment. Once upon a time, when I first retired from the military, I decided quickly that I needed to find a therapist. I checked my new insurance plan to see who was covered around here and chose a place that sounded good. I was randomly paired up with someone. That…
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Daily Prompt 5/3/23
Well, I’ve already completed one career plan, which was 20 years in the military. So I guess I am semi-retired now. I feel like there’s more left for me to do and I am still trying to figure out what that looks like. I want to work for myself as a writer, editer, and researcher.…
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Taking ownership
I’ve had a couple of life-changing things happen in the last week or so, mostly revelations in my own mind and results from deep meditation. I feel like I’ve turned some corner on everything. It’s showing up in weird, unpredictable ways, but mainly it’s the peace I feel inside me now. I do editing work…
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Daily Prompt 4/28/23
People I admire and look to for advice…this is a moving target for me because my life is such a strange collection of completely different things, the list grows and shrinks as time goes on. But no matter what, my number one is my wife. I admire her for a million and one different reasons…
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Daily Prompt 4/26/23
This question actually amuses me because I have spent a lot of my life aimlessly wandering, or just afloat, allowing the wind to blow me where I need to be. I used to feel like that made me a bad person, or lazy without any direction. But I am learning as I get older that…
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Daily Prompt 4/25/23
“Life’s a journey, not a destination…” “Amazing” by Aerosmith I sometimes forget to remind myself of this. It’s something that has been with me since the first time I heard this song in the 90s. It’s true and very important for me to remember when I am getting all intense about something that really isn’t…
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Manifestation of Stress
Things here are still stressful. People are still who they’ve always been. And I am just trying to hold it all together. But my body is showing me that it remembers the past traumas and pain. It remembers what it’s like to spend all of its energy on just staying alive. Suddenly my appetite changes…
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Daily Prompt 4/20/23
All the things that are “impolite” to discuss like politics, religion, current events, delicate situations, and other things like science, technology, people’s life stories, and funny things that seem to be universal. But I generally know when and with whom I can discuss the things that are most likely to upset people. I don’t start…
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Aggressive Ignorance
I read a great blog post a few days ago about aggressive ignorance. It summed up a few different scenarios of people who refused to learn new things like technology or how to interact with people in a civilized manner. It’s been stuck in my mind since I read it a few days ago. Why…
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Surviving
This situation is hard. But I am doing ok. I am frustrated but not freaking out. My body remembers the physical fear I used to feel. Sudden movements find me on edge often. I am annoyed, but not revealing anything about how I feel. Parents #2 texted my wife and I last night, thanking us…
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