Category: Hot Trigger
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Harry and Meghan
*Disclaimer-I am not from the UK and never lived in the UK, although I do have friends in the UK. My genealogy says I have a lot of ancestors from England way back in the 1500s/1600s but I am not in touch with any relatives as anyone left in England at this point would be…
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Intelligence
(Today I am ignoring the prompt that asked me about my favorite place to visit. I refuse to be derailed by WP’s writing prompt right now, but maybe I will answer that later.) So my question is when did when did critical thinking become a liability? Why is intelligence looked down upon in some circles?…
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sitting in my shame
Yesterday I had to do a VA exam for part of the claim that was initially deferred. But because I’ve already got 100%, these exams don’t even matter. I can’t get any more money at this point unless I lose a limb. But I still feel like I should finish all of these open exams…
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My Misery
I can’t go too deep into myself very often because it hurts too much down there. It’s where the deepest traumas live, where the pain goes when I have to push it away for just a bit because I can’t cope with it. It’s where the question of “Why did I have to be born…
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Too Much
It’s all too much today. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. There were 5 conditions that the VA deferred and they don’t really matter anymore because I already hit 100% with the conditions they rated earlier. Now one of the companies they use for appointments is calling me and I cannot answer my phone right…
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We’re all in this together, part II
A long time ago, and sometimes in my lifetime, there were very rigid sets of expectations for how men and women must behave. It applied to what types of clothing were acceptable in public, occupations (except in war time because there’s no rules during war time apparently), who did what with their children, hobbies, etc.…
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We are all in this together
I am naturally a very curious person. I like to know why and how things happen. I really love to learn and figure out new things. One of these things I really wanted to understand was the TERF (Trans- Exclusionary Radical Feminist) mindset. Being AFAB at birth but always wanting to be male, it never…
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Today’s Gift
Randomly my oldest called me mid-morning. I have been meaning to call him too, so I was happy to see his name on my phone. Plus, it’s easier when he calls during the day instead of dinner time, which seems like his standard time to call. Sometimes night time phone calls end up cutting into…
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But I’m not gay
One of the hardest parts of all my soul searching that has been hard for me is reconciling sexuality and gender. In college, everyone assumed that I was a lesbian. I felt an aversion to the word lesbian that was inexplicable and made me stay away from any club or organization that had to do…
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Sick
I am sick. My wife has been sick all week and I’ve been less present with blogging than usual. I’m sure it’s just a cold or some weird little virus that’s not Covid. I am vaccinated and boosted last fall and now this fall. I’m not interested in debating the pros and cons of Covid…
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