Category: Air Force
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Sunglasses
I bought new sunglasses recently. When I was in my 20s, I used to lose them all the time, so I never invested in a decent, comfortable pair. I did once buy this fancy pair of Nike sunglasses right after basic training, but they were the wrong color for wearing in military uniform. And then […]
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Daily Prompt 12/16
Tell us one thing you hope people never say about you… I like this daily prompt a lot. This is a great question. I hope people never say that I don’t or didn’t care. I care so much. Maybe more than I should in some instances. Sometimes I care so much that I sacrifice myself […]
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Stepping Back
When I first started thinking about retiring from the Air Force, I had so many ideas about what I wanted to do. A huge part of me was considering applying for this recall that would give me two more years in the Air Force. I felt like I needed that security blanket, like I wasn’t […]
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Processing
When I first saw that I got 100% from the VA, permanent and total, I was in shock. Then I was happy. Then more shock. Then happiness again. I think I have been on this rollercoaster the entire time since I found out. I got the packet yesterday and read the entire thing twice. It […]
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Now I love the VA
I was screwing around on my computer last night for no real reason. Looking up that kid from the daycare, I guess. I realized that I had just given up on my VA claim about a month or so ago and I stopped checking. I went from checking twice a day to checking twice a […]
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I Hate the VA
On December 22 last year I submitted my 24 item disability claim to the Veterans Administration. I had one year after retirement to get it in and still get back pay all the way to the day after my retirement was effective. It took me almost that whole year because I needed to relive all […]
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No Apologies
So two days ago, I was a little ahead. I actually had my therapy and med appointments today. My therapy appointment today was great. I was able to go a little deeper with her today and let her into a bit more of me. She listened and her facial expressions were very validating. The most […]
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We’re all beautifully damaged
As I started on my journey after retiring from the military, I spent a lot of time thinking about my VA claim. It’s a ridiculous process where, after 20+ years in the military and going to the doctor just enough to take care of the most painful things, you have to fight for everything that […]
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The Coin
I turned the large coin over repeatedly in my hand after she walked away. This moment didn’t feel real. I had just had a brief discussion with the Secretary of the Air Force right here at my work computer. I replayed her comments over and over in my mind as I continued to turn the […]
Zander's Inside Voice 