Tag: Mental Health
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Out of sync
I’m still recovering from the surgery. The reaction rash is pretty much cleared up and now the areas where my skin turned deep red and slowly fading back to normal color. I finished the steroids on Sunday and ended up in a good bit of pain later that day. It feels like I’ve taken a…
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Troy’s Letter
Last week I got a call from the victim advocate down in FL who has been assigned my cases. Her job is to contact me on behalf of the prosecutor and set me up with any services I may need to recover from this break-in. She called to ask how I felt about reducing one…
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On Defense
(This is from my draft folder that I never finished back in early January and posted. I thought it would be interesting to try to finish it up with more than 9 months of time since I first started writing the entry.) I had an appointment with my psychiatric nurse practitioner today. It was a…
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Make it make sense
With my upcoming surgery, I find myself in my head a lot lately when I’m alone. Not my old self-doubt thoughts like “Is this what I really want? Is this really, 100% who I am?” Instead it’s been going like this-“What will it feel like to run without that extra weight I’ve had all this…
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Odds and Ends
It’s been a nutty couple of weeks but it seems to be settling down now. Boy #3 is done with cross country, Girl is done with soccer and just has lacrosse now, and Boy #2 got his first choice college visit out of the way. Boy #1 seems to be struggling a bit at college,…
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Struggling
There’s a lot going on around me and there’s even more going on in my head. If I’m being honest, I’d have to say that I’m not exactly ok. I’m not really depressed or down. I am just not really into anything right now. I’m going through the motions of life mostly. I feel numb…
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Can’t FOcus
No matter what I do this week, I cannot find my focus AT ALL. Even right now, as I’m writing, I feel so foggy and like I’m not even in my own brain. I have a list of things to do and I can only open it to add more items. But I can’t get…
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Figuring it all out
My dad. He’s like a crazy puzzle. He is actually pretty crazy himself. I’ve never known anyone else who needs attention as much or is as selfish as my father. Every conversation with him is a one-sided, him blasting you with information, an old story, or some other dull explanation of a basic thing that…
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My favorite places
Yesterday I arrived at one of my most favorite places in the US. Washington, DC! I was once deployed to this area for 7 months to support the defense of the National Capital Region back in 2011. It was a great experience where I lived at a hotel and worked a goofy schedule that gave…