Tag: Mental Health
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Why Me?
So often when I think about the question “Why me”, I think about it in a very negative way. Like someone upset with what’s been done to them but some psychopath or why they have to deal with an illness or condition that sucks. For a long time I have been trying to reframe the…
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Dear Brother
Hello. I know we have grown apart so much in our adult lives. We have lived at different corners of the same country. We have both suffered tremendous pain, highs so great that we wanted to scream about our joy from mountaintops, and the end of our military careers. We have had children and lived…
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Could my past be true?
One of my biggest struggles has been that I don’t believe that I have suffered as much as I have. It’s like I have to validate myself to myself. I often think I am exaggerating what I have been through, or I don’t remember something as accurately. Maybe my babysitter didn’t hit us as much…
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Dear Mom,
I started to handwrite this letter a few months ago, but had to stop because it overwhelmed me. You have no idea how much I have held inside all of these years. Every time I tried to get right with what happened and who you are, I feel this immense pain bubble up inside me.…
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Suicide
(Please be aware that I talk very openly and candidly about my own experiences with suicide. If this is not something easy for you, please don’t continue reading or read with caution. This is not meant to hurt or trigger anyone else.) I understand that suicide is something that is very difficult to talk about…
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Validation of the Sadness
Tiny Buddha always seems to know exactly what I am going through and what I need to hear to feel better. Grieving has been hard this past year and a half since I realized and processed the biggest part of my truth. That day I finally slowed down and listened to what was screaming inside…
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Those Hard Things
Thinking about the deep things I avoid is kind of tough for me today. I feel myself wanting to avoid all of those things, even letting them in feels like too much right now. I know that I don’t need to pressure myself to finish that list today, but I want to get it done…
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Family…or not?
fam-i-ly noun a group of one or more parents and their children living together as a unit. “the family lived in a large house with a lot of land.” all the descendants of a common ancestor. “The house has been owned by the same family for 300 years.” adjective designed to be suitable for children…
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The Nothingness of Today
I gave myself a day with no expectations, nothing specific to do other than one scheduled appointment, help the kids cook dinner, and get out trash and recycling. I suppose that sounds like a lot, but it was spread out over the entire day. I also did some weeding around the flowers out front and…
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Self Care Monday
Today is the first weekday in 3 weeks that we don’t have our contractor and his team working on our bathroom. The lack of construction noise is so pleasant. I love our contractor and his team; they are GREAT people who I trust to do work when I had to leave for appointments and grocery…