Tag: Mental Health
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Blank Slate
After going really deep into memories yesterday, I am staying out of anything deep for today. Yesterday I remembered details I had long forgotten. It seemed wise to just sit with those details and not try to think about too much more of that deep stuff. I’ve always felt like I had a great memory,…
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Dear Dad,
One of the ways I have been coping with everything is writing letters. I write them in my head all the time to you, to Mom, to the kids, to everyone. Sometimes I write them down. I’ve often thought about writing an entire book in the form of letters. I’m still thinking about it, actually.…
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You can’t possibly know…
Something that has been grinding my gears for awhile now is this silly transphobic (debunked) theory about Rapid Onset Gender Dysphoria (ROGD). As someone who worked hard to hide from my feelings about my gender, this was interesting and upsetting at the same time. My curiosity got the better of me and I started looking…
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My Superpower
There’s lots of things I do ok at and lots that I’m pretty good at doing. There’s a few I think I’m spectacular at and a handful that are my strengths, hands down. But my superpower is deciding I am angry and building myself an entire narrative on how I have been wronged. I think…
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Fatigue has set in…
I’ve been going nonstop for weeks now. My body is tired and my brain is running on empty. I forget that this is how I functioned for 6 years. After recovering over a period of 7 months, I try everything to not end up in this place because it’s hard to even exist when you’re…
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What OCD feels like to me…
OCD is something that I really didn’t want to admit that I had. I haven’t been formally diagnosed, but three psychologists have suggested it when we’ve been working towards diagnosing something else. In the Air Force, it felt like it was ok to just “suggest” that I have it but getting a formal diagnosis would…
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Fall
September is quickly speeding towards us. With it comes pretty leaves, cooler weather, football, pumpkins, Halloween, and all the things I love. I love fall and winter and spring too. Summer isn’t really my thing, though, so I am always eager for fall especially. I lived in the Southeast for a long time and fall…
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The kids have all gone to school…
and I have wasted no time taking that deep dive into my soul. It’s like I need to be without them to really look inside. The second I felt myself look inward, I knew today was going to be one of those days. Something is sitting on the edge in there, wanting to get out…
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What’s a Family?
One of the greatest discoveries of my lifetime is that family is not just a bunch of people who happen to be genetically related to you, or a group of people you marry into. Family is literally what you want it to be. Your pets are your family. Your friends are your family. Your neighbors…