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Handling Boy #1
Boy #1 is struggling. He’s with his friend, trying to live on their own in an apartment, getting VA Ch 35 money, going to school full time, and getting jobs. They’ve been on this journey since August. It took us until October to get the VA money flowing. And it’s not the right amount. He’s…
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Daily Prompt 11/20/23
I would meet George Washington. I have so many questions for him. How did you handle all the conflicting opinions and how hard was it for you to go against the British? Did you have any moral concerns about not respecting authority or did you feel it was justified because of taxes? I would ask…
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Looking down, backwards, and at the mirror
I am still so unbelievably happy with my surgery results. Other than some stubborn swelling, which I understand will go down eventually and is totally normal, everything is going really well with recovery. I am still not to lift anything over 10 lbs and I need to be careful with how much I extend my…
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Emotional Labor
Today is Boy #3’s 13th birthday. Since this is the first birthday since the divorce that the ex is in town, there were some new considerations to think about. Boy #3 wanted to invite the ex over for dinner and cake but that wasn’t really what we wanted to do. Since the divorce, the ex…
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Letters and Apologies
I can’t believe we are crossing over mid-November already. Where has this year gone? Why did it go by so fast? I keep getting reminders of the break-in at my Florida house almost every week that remind that August is getting farther and farther in the past. The victim advocate calls me with every update…
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Feelings
I’ve been thinking a lot about feelings and how I was brought up to not feel anything except angry. When I was sad, hurt, disappointed, too happy, or anything other than angry or numb, it was wrong. Disappointment was particularly unacceptable. I remember an incident where my dad and I were supposed to go to…
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Consistency
I want to get better about blogging regularly again. I was so focused in the spring and I’m proud of how much writing I was doing. Then the squatter came and life changed. I felt like a prisoner in my own home. No one wants to be asked what they’re doing constantly or what they’ve…
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Out of sync
I’m still recovering from the surgery. The reaction rash is pretty much cleared up and now the areas where my skin turned deep red and slowly fading back to normal color. I finished the steroids on Sunday and ended up in a good bit of pain later that day. It feels like I’ve taken a…
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Family Drama
There’s been a lot going on for awhile with the ex’s parents and their youngest child, who turned 40 this year. This child was content to be kind when she needed her mother to watch her children during the day. This child has always been blunt and rude and sometimes made trouble in public for…
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Top Surgery Complete!
I’m so sorry that I’ve been MIA for the past couple of weeks. I had a lot to do to prep for top surgery last Tuesday and I was on pain meds up until yesterday afternoon. I had my one week post-op appointment today and everything went well. Almost everything but I will get into…