Zander's Inside Voice

…zany, too deep introspection from a scattered perfectionist

About Me
  • focus, Focus, FOCUS!!

    My ADHD brain has lost its way. In the last few days I have left a huge trail of destruction through the house, been unable to finish tasks, and have been daydreaming more than ever. Today was no different. I made a mistake that was so cringeworthy that I am hesitant to repeat it here […]

    zanderham13

    3rd Feb 2023
    Life, Raw, The Real Me
    adhd, anxiety, ptsd, time blindness
  • R. Kelly

    I’ve been watching the Surviving R. Kelly documentaries the last few weeks. At the time all of his abuses were coming to light, I was sort of out of touch with it. My life was always kind of nuts in the early 2000s. I do recall hearing some of it and that no one believed […]

    zanderham13

    3rd Feb 2023
    Hot Trigger, Life, Mental Health, people watching, Raw
    abuse, Mental Health, ptsd, RKelly, trauma
  • Summing up a life

    The funeral was today. As expected, it was difficult. As an empathetic person, I felt sadness all around me. There were pictures of her scrolling on the tv the entire time. And wouldn’t you know it, every single picture of her with a birthday cake in front of her was all smiles of pure joy. […]

    zanderham13

    31st Jan 2023
    kids, Life, Memories, Mental Health, Raw, relationships, The Real Me
    family, funeral, kid life, Mental Health, souls
  • Family Dramas

    Does anyone have a completely drama-free family? I don’t think so. There always seems to be that person or I guess people (in some families) that just can’t get it right. No matter what, they’re obnoxious. Whether they just want to be difficult, enjoy tormenting others, are selfish, or have some kind of mental/personality disorder, […]

    zanderham13

    30th Jan 2023
    Life, Raw, relationships
    family, grandma
  • Repressed pain

    Losing my wife’s grandmother sent me into some kind of bizarre panic. It took me until last night to make the connection. But it was weird. I didn’t understand why I was excluded, unloved, and undesired. I could see that there was a part of me that was not reacting properly and going into panic […]

    zanderham13

    28th Jan 2023
    Life, Memories, Mental Health, Raw, relationships, The Real Me
    anxiety, family, grandma, Mental Health, pain, panic
  • On Adolescence

    Boy #1 will be 20 in May, Boy #2 will be 17 in April, and Boy #3 just turned 12 in November. I really feel like Boy #3 and I have so much in common. For example; our sense of humor and the things we find funny, the way we relate to people in general, […]

    zanderham13

    27th Jan 2023
    Life, Memories, Mental Health, Raw, relationships, The Real Me
    adolescence, family, middle school, ptsd, translife, tweens
  • Today Sucks

    I am working on a major project with my friend. She’s working on building her brand and wants to expand to a book this year. That’s the part I am helping her with. We were supposed to meet every Thursday. We met three weeks ago, then she canceled, then I canceled, and she canceled again […]

    zanderham13

    26th Jan 2023
    Life, Raw, relationships
    anxiety, health
  • SNOW DAY!

    The kids are off from school today and my wife decided to close her workplace as well because of the weather. We got some snow and there is rain projected for later on this afternoon. It’s nice to have an unexpected day off in the middle of the week! Girl had her physical today and […]

    zanderham13

    25th Jan 2023
    kids, Life
    kids, snow day
  • Sunglasses

    I bought new sunglasses recently. When I was in my 20s, I used to lose them all the time, so I never invested in a decent, comfortable pair. I did once buy this fancy pair of Nike sunglasses right after basic training, but they were the wrong color for wearing in military uniform. And then […]

    zanderham13

    23rd Jan 2023
    Air Force, Life, Raw, The Real Me
    anxiety, Mental Health, sunglasses, translife
  • Daily Prompt 1/23/2023

    If you could make your pet understand one thing, what would it be? If I could make these cats understand one thing, it would be that meals are not served on demand. There are specific times for lunch and dinner, and crunchy food is there all the time. Asking for lunch any time before 11 […]

    zanderham13

    23rd Jan 2023
    daily prompt, Life
    dailyprompt, dailyprompt-1825
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