Category: The Real Me
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Daily Prompt 12/20
Talk about your father or a father figure in your life. My father has been a frequent subject here for most of the time I have been blogging. Our relationship has never been what I wanted and needed but I do believe he does the very best he can do. I know he was under…
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Daily Prompt 12/19
Is your life today like what you pictured a year ago? This is another good question! Yes, it does look very similar to what I had pictured a year ago, especially because all the stuff with the VA came through. I wasn’t really expecting that so soon. I initially put my claim in almost a…
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News that weighs heavy
Apparently Texas Attorney General and Douche Bag Ken Paxton requested information about how many Texas license holders changed their gender in the last 24 months. This feels so incredibly dangerous. This information isn’t necessary. It’s one thing to be “concerned” about children’s health, but it’s quite another to chase around that information for adults. I…
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who fits where?
I have never fit neatly into anything in my entire life. I was the girl who acted more like a boy. The boy that wasn’t really a boy. The kid that played with whatever was lying around including sticks, bugs, and toads. I was picked on for being too rough and for being poor. I…
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Daily Prompt
Big events over the past year, huh? Well, Boy #3 had his first band concert playing trumpet about a year ago. Then he won second place for mental math category for his grade at the math-olympics. He had a great school year last year and this one has started out amazing too. Boy#2 had a…
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Seekers
I listen to Glennon Doyle’s and Abby Wambach’s podcast sometimes. I happened to listen to it today and yesterday. Or was it two days ago…it doesn’t matter. Both days were an interview with Sarah Edmondson, former member of NXIVM, who escaped and helps out other people escaping cults and religious groups. Now I love learning…
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Letting go of what never was
As I continue to think about my recent discovery about food being a positive connection to my father, I move forward. I am now in a place where I can see several things that I didn’t realize as a child or even as a younger adult. All of these realizations have been swirling around me…
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Two halves make a hole
I am learning to live as one whole person. I have been living my life as two halves-one is the outward part of me most people know and see. The quiet, kind, caring person who goes out of their way to help everyone. The person who doesn’t seem to have much personality and just kind…
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sitting in my shame
Yesterday I had to do a VA exam for part of the claim that was initially deferred. But because I’ve already got 100%, these exams don’t even matter. I can’t get any more money at this point unless I lose a limb. But I still feel like I should finish all of these open exams…
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definitions
How does a dream start? Where does a dream come from? How do you figure out what your dream is (or dreams are)? How do you know what you are meant to do in life? We are defined by our jobs and our families and sometimes what we believe in, but what really are those…
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