Tag: ptsd
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the year ahead
This year is off to a great start. I feel really inspired and happy so far. I’m eagerly awaiting the stsaff applications to open for the camp I want to work at, lacrosse practice starts this week, and I feel energized. That’s rare for me this time of year, as I’m usually down and sad…
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Rounding out November in STYLE
It’s been a rough week in our house. Thanksgiving Day was a marvelous feast thanks to my wife’s amazing cooking. We relaxed, watched the parade in the morning, and I was on top of the clean up all afternoon. We were ahead and everything went really well. Then Friday happened…My wife and Girl set out…
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Troy’s Letter
Last week I got a call from the victim advocate down in FL who has been assigned my cases. Her job is to contact me on behalf of the prosecutor and set me up with any services I may need to recover from this break-in. She called to ask how I felt about reducing one…
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Struggling
There’s a lot going on around me and there’s even more going on in my head. If I’m being honest, I’d have to say that I’m not exactly ok. I’m not really depressed or down. I am just not really into anything right now. I’m going through the motions of life mostly. I feel numb…
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Figuring it all out
My dad. He’s like a crazy puzzle. He is actually pretty crazy himself. I’ve never known anyone else who needs attention as much or is as selfish as my father. Every conversation with him is a one-sided, him blasting you with information, an old story, or some other dull explanation of a basic thing that…
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Once Upon a Time
There were parents who had children just because they thought they were supposed to. These parents thought the best way to raise these children was to direct every part of their lives and force them to be exactly who the parents thought they should be. There was no regard for who these children actually were…
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Girl
Girl had a breakdown last night. We haven’t started school yet and are slowly working back to the normal timing for when school does start in two weeks. We are all staying up too late and it’s wearing us all down. I was running behind last night and taking out my contacts as the last…
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The End
The squatter leaves this weekend. Finally. And all the squatter’s disgusting stuff will be gone too. I wish it had happened much sooner. I’ve tried to be patient. I’ve tried to ignore the numbness inside me that prevents me from feeling the pain of remembering what life used to be. I’ve tried to be understanding…
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My therapist is leaving but…
I have reconnected with the one I had before! We had our first session last week and it went really well. I was so worried about contacting her because she left counseling completely when she left the place I was going last year. But then 6 months later, I found her again and she was…