Tag: depression
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Handling Boy #1
Boy #1 is struggling. He’s with his friend, trying to live on their own in an apartment, getting VA Ch 35 money, going to school full time, and getting jobs. They’ve been on this journey since August. It took us until October to get the VA money flowing. And it’s not the right amount. He’s…
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Looking down, backwards, and at the mirror
I am still so unbelievably happy with my surgery results. Other than some stubborn swelling, which I understand will go down eventually and is totally normal, everything is going really well with recovery. I am still not to lift anything over 10 lbs and I need to be careful with how much I extend my…
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Struggling
There’s a lot going on around me and there’s even more going on in my head. If I’m being honest, I’d have to say that I’m not exactly ok. I’m not really depressed or down. I am just not really into anything right now. I’m going through the motions of life mostly. I feel numb…
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Can’t FOcus
No matter what I do this week, I cannot find my focus AT ALL. Even right now, as I’m writing, I feel so foggy and like I’m not even in my own brain. I have a list of things to do and I can only open it to add more items. But I can’t get…
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Figuring it all out
My dad. He’s like a crazy puzzle. He is actually pretty crazy himself. I’ve never known anyone else who needs attention as much or is as selfish as my father. Every conversation with him is a one-sided, him blasting you with information, an old story, or some other dull explanation of a basic thing that…
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Once Upon a Time
There were parents who had children just because they thought they were supposed to. These parents thought the best way to raise these children was to direct every part of their lives and force them to be exactly who the parents thought they should be. There was no regard for who these children actually were…
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Enough
A friend of mine posted on social media today that he’s having a hard time with this whole military retirement thing. Like he’s not sure if he’s done good enough as a commander and who is he without the military. This is the way most of us feel when it’s the end of our time…
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Another departure
My awesome barber/hair stylist and friend is leaving the area. It wasn’t what I wanted to hear. She recommended another person but…it’s not the same. I feel myself wanting to pull away and just let go completely. I don’t want to say goodbye. I don’t want to learn someone else. It’s hard not to feel…