Tag: anxiety
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A mistake that really could’ve hurt
I made a huge mistake this morning while taking my morning meds. I have three pill sorters because I have morning medicine, night medicine, and right before bed medicine. I’ve had two of three for awhile now and they were a little gross. So I bought more. I filled them yesterday like I always do,…
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Showing up for myself
Since I started back with my original therapist, we’ve been deep-diving into things, and lately it’s been with my parents. Mostly my father. There’s been new things this year that he’s done, and I’ve also had realizations that we are likely approaching some level of cognitive decline with him. He seems to be having “senior…
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Shaking off Judgment
For once in my life, I am not worried about what others think of me. I have finally reached a place where I no longer rush to judge others. I find that in “real-life” outside of the military culture I existed in for over 20 years, it’s so much easier to not judge others. The…
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Rounding out November in STYLE
It’s been a rough week in our house. Thanksgiving Day was a marvelous feast thanks to my wife’s amazing cooking. We relaxed, watched the parade in the morning, and I was on top of the clean up all afternoon. We were ahead and everything went really well. Then Friday happened…My wife and Girl set out…
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Handling Boy #1
Boy #1 is struggling. He’s with his friend, trying to live on their own in an apartment, getting VA Ch 35 money, going to school full time, and getting jobs. They’ve been on this journey since August. It took us until October to get the VA money flowing. And it’s not the right amount. He’s…
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Looking down, backwards, and at the mirror
I am still so unbelievably happy with my surgery results. Other than some stubborn swelling, which I understand will go down eventually and is totally normal, everything is going really well with recovery. I am still not to lift anything over 10 lbs and I need to be careful with how much I extend my…
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Struggling
There’s a lot going on around me and there’s even more going on in my head. If I’m being honest, I’d have to say that I’m not exactly ok. I’m not really depressed or down. I am just not really into anything right now. I’m going through the motions of life mostly. I feel numb…
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Can’t FOcus
No matter what I do this week, I cannot find my focus AT ALL. Even right now, as I’m writing, I feel so foggy and like I’m not even in my own brain. I have a list of things to do and I can only open it to add more items. But I can’t get…
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Figuring it all out
My dad. He’s like a crazy puzzle. He is actually pretty crazy himself. I’ve never known anyone else who needs attention as much or is as selfish as my father. Every conversation with him is a one-sided, him blasting you with information, an old story, or some other dull explanation of a basic thing that…