Tag: anxiety
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You don’t owe anyone a thing
I took two days off from writing. The first day was hard. I didn’t really have anything to say, we were busy most of Saturday anyway, and by the time I remembered that I didn’t even do the daily prompt, it was late and I needed to do a bunch of other things before bedtime. […]
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Too Much
It’s all too much today. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. There were 5 conditions that the VA deferred and they don’t really matter anymore because I already hit 100% with the conditions they rated earlier. Now one of the companies they use for appointments is calling me and I cannot answer my phone right […]
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Weekend Round Up
This weekend has been a whirlwind of adventure. I’m over 40,000 words on NaNoWriMo and my story is shaping up nicely. I will be done early and I will definitely be over 50K words. It’s always amazing when I can actually write an entire story like this. I have too many unfinished projects on my […]
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The Bags I Carry
We are all carrying way too many bags of crap around in our hearts and souls. This is an analogy that I always liked because I felt so heavy for so long because I was carrying the weight of the world in my bags. I have always been an intense thinker and sometimes anxiety-ridden worrier […]
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Somebody else’s life…
I love Boy George and Culture Club. I have loved them since I was about 6 years old. The whole idea of a boy dressed like a girl didn’t even strike me as strange. I liked their songs, their voices, all of their music. As I’ve gotten older, that hasn’t changed, although I understand so […]
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I am tired
This weird thing with my dad is exhausting me emotionally. Everything was going really well with us until he asked if I could just work on things with my mom because she was almost jealous that he and I were talking so much and doing so much better. Why would he do that? Why would […]
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To Fight…or not
Seasonal affective disorder has me living the life of GoT Stark House: Last night felt bad for some reason. It was like my emotions were all mixed up in a sad way. I have noticed as I heal that I am not very knowledgeable about my emotions. I always thought I was good at emotions […]
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Now What?
Today my father and I worked on a lesson in this Emotionally Healthy Relationships course he became a facilitator for in his church. He wanted to practice it more than the one time they rushed through it in the training, and he thought it might help us improve our relationship. Initially, he was sending me […]
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No more pieces to give
I have officially given away all of my pieces today. Everyone needed something from me and there’s nothing more to give. I feel exhausted and spent. I know some of it is hormonal and some of it comes from being out at an event last night. My oldest tried to call me last night to […]
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The Bus Stop
Last year, Boy #3 (who we affectionately refer to as “Grandpa” even though he’s only 11) was the only kid in this neighborhood at his school. The bus had to come all the way to our neighborhood, which is at the edge of the district for just him. I was excited for this year because […]
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