Category: relationships
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Repressed pain
Losing my wife’s grandmother sent me into some kind of bizarre panic. It took me until last night to make the connection. But it was weird. I didn’t understand why I was excluded, unloved, and undesired. I could see that there was a part of me that was not reacting properly and going into panic…
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On Adolescence
Boy #1 will be 20 in May, Boy #2 will be 17 in April, and Boy #3 just turned 12 in November. I really feel like Boy #3 and I have so much in common. For example; our sense of humor and the things we find funny, the way we relate to people in general,…
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Today Sucks
I am working on a major project with my friend. She’s working on building her brand and wants to expand to a book this year. That’s the part I am helping her with. We were supposed to meet every Thursday. We met three weeks ago, then she canceled, then I canceled, and she canceled again…
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It came today
Since I became an adult, I have had the original copy of my birth certificate that my parents received after I was born. The copy they used to register me for school, for extracurricular activities, again for middle school when we moved, and then in high school when we moved again. I used it to…
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A Break
I took a few days off of writing. Things got busy here with needing to head back to Kentucky to pick up the kids, we got in late after that, and today is the first day of regular life in 2023 for us. I spent a lot of that time away thinking deeply about everything…
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The Year of 2022…
I cannot believe this is the last day of 2022. The last almost three years have been crazy for me, and not just because of the pandemic. We’ve all been through some insane times these last three years with that, even when things have gotten better. Remembering those early days of the pandemic when everyone…
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Daily Prompt 12/28
Have you ever been in an automobile accident? Yes, several and none have been my fault. The most recent was 2012. I was going straight in the right lane on a busy 4 lane road. Someone in the left lane waved a person from the other side to turn in front of them. The person…
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Daily Prompt 12/26
Who are the biggest influences in your life? This is a tough question for me now. I have been on a journey these last two years that has changed my perspective on my past. As I’ve healed, I see my life in such a different way and who has shaped who I am now. I…
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Daily Prompt 12/24
Are you a good judge of character? Yes and no. Yes when I am in a good place and I feel comfortable in who I am and what I am doing. No when I am desperate and don’t want to be alone, or I think I need some form of validation. When I first started…
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Great Sadness
My father texted me this morning to tell me that his sister, my aunt passed away last night. Ugh. There are so many layers to this. My father’s family of origin has been one of those topics I don’t really like to talk or even think about. His mother was a narcissistic, lying, dramatic bitch.…
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