Category: Life
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Cults
We love documentaries about cults. At this point we have watched more than I can even remember. Scientology, FDLS, Heaven’s Gate, Jonestown, Branch Davidians, NXIVM, Doc Antle, Children of God, Rajneeshpuram, we have seen it all. I think what fascinates me the most is how the leaders (who seem more like ordinary idiots than idols) […]
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2 Hours
I just talked to my oldest for two hours. It was awesome. He’s such a good kid. We hadn’t talked in awhile and it’s so interesting to see how much he changes between conversations. He has done so much growing since high school graduation last year. He has walked a hard road. He had gotten […]
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Dear Mom,
I started to handwrite this letter a few months ago, but had to stop because it overwhelmed me. You have no idea how much I have held inside all of these years. Every time I tried to get right with what happened and who you are, I feel this immense pain bubble up inside me. […]
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Suicide
(Please be aware that I talk very openly and candidly about my own experiences with suicide. If this is not something easy for you, please don’t continue reading or read with caution. This is not meant to hurt or trigger anyone else.) I understand that suicide is something that is very difficult to talk about […]
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Validation of the Sadness
Tiny Buddha always seems to know exactly what I am going through and what I need to hear to feel better. Grieving has been hard this past year and a half since I realized and processed the biggest part of my truth. That day I finally slowed down and listened to what was screaming inside […]
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To Chris
Today is your anniversary. Every September 2nd is a day to remember you now. Same as your birthday. And in my head, the day you came to me to tell me what my future would hold. Although every day is a day to remember you, these special days make me dig a little deeper and […]
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Some Things About LOVE ❤️
What love is: ❤️ Accepting someone unconditionally ❤️ Listening to someone to understand them better ❤️ Supporting someone in what THEY want to do ❤️ Giving loving, supportive advice WHEN REQUESTED ❤️ Talking WITH someone ❤️ Giving the gift of your time and attention ❤️ Giving a handmade gift or something you know they will […]
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Shame
My entire life has been full of shame. When I did anything wrong, even as a small fry, I got lectured about how I should feel “ashamed” of myself. That happened every single time that I did anything wrong, whether it was age appropriate. One of the very first times I can remember was when […]
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Those Hard Things
Thinking about the deep things I avoid is kind of tough for me today. I feel myself wanting to avoid all of those things, even letting them in feels like too much right now. I know that I don’t need to pressure myself to finish that list today, but I want to get it done […]
Zander's Inside Voice 