Category: Life
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It’s Almost Time
I have everything I need to change my name legally now. I can feel that I am ready for it and that it needs to happen soon. There’s just a few things I worry about, like telling everyone. And changing all the documents to the correct name. And then the part where I file to […]
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Dig Deep
I started this blog to work on putting myself out there and to stop living like I needed to appease everyone. With that came the unfortunate truth that I didn’t reveal much about myself and most of my friends were really acquaintances who didn’t know much about me. In retrospect I had so much to […]
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Some days I really suck
This morning has been a wreck. My main ADHD struggles are time management, organization in general, and creating piles of clutter. This creates tons of problems for me in various ways. I really struggle to pick it all up once it’s gotten to be too much for my brain. This means piles of clothes where […]
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Diana Part III
I have been dutifully trying to figure out what happened to my great-great grandmother for almost a year now. It’s not easy because she was never married to my great-great grandfather and I never knew my great grandfather. I’ve written about some of my saga with researching Diana here and here. Recently I found something […]
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What now?
I feel something stirring inside of me. Something I am meant to be doing. Sometimes it feels demanding, like I am running out of time to do whatever this is. Other times it feels like I need to just slow down and listen, learn what this calling is about. I have tried on so many […]
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Being small
Back in March 2015 I finally broke. Everything was collapsing around me at home and at work. My marriage was failing, work sucked and I felt lost, and I just didn’t want to live anymore. What ultimately pushed me over the edge was finding out Boy #1 was dealing with serious bullying and wanted to […]
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Standards
The recent development with Biden’s classified documents discovered at multiple locations is really pissing me off. I was equally pissed off about Trump’s documents, Hillary’s server and emails, and every other time an elected or appointed government official has mishandled information. It’s not ok when ANYONE does, no matter what political party they happen to […]
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It came today
Since I became an adult, I have had the original copy of my birth certificate that my parents received after I was born. The copy they used to register me for school, for extracurricular activities, again for middle school when we moved, and then in high school when we moved again. I used it to […]
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Anxiety, Dread, and…a car in the driveway?
today sucks. There, I said it. Today simply sucks. In December of 2021, I scheduled an appointment for this day. A regular appointment. The one that I hate with every fiber of my being because it’s all about the physical parts of me that I don’t want to acknowledge. The parts that make my life […]
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January Updates
I have not been back to posting regularly since the new year started. I have been feeling a block, actually. A dread almost, every time I think about what I want to write next. I have started two drafts and not finished them. When I do open up my computer, I avoid the WordPress tab […]
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