Category: Hot Trigger
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Inner Strength
I’m here. I’m surviving. And in some ways I feel myself thriving. The key for me is digestible small chunks of information. No doom scrolling, no freaking myself out with hours of reading the news on various platforms and social media accounts. The key for me is to preveng panic because that’s what takes away…
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Built for right now
I’ve been thinking these last few days about everything I have been through and how it was hard at the time in most cases, but how some of these things didn’t feel as hard until after the fact. Like in the moment I was just surviving and pushing through, not realizing that one day things…
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So here we are, 2025
I’ve been thinking that I need to get back to blogging for awhile now. So much has changed and the world around us is so different than it was just a few months ago. I felt a strange aversion to blogging, like it was just too much work. That’s not true, it’s never been true,…
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Motivation or Distraction?
I’ve watched this documentary on Prime a few times now. It’s called Bad Faith and it talks about how to religious right came to be and how they used Trump to achieve their goals, mainly around abortion currently. Overall it’s a very informative thing that I would recommend everyone take a look at. The reason…
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Back at it
Last night was my first time back at lacrosse practice since surgery. It was easy to be there and I didn’t feel tired while I was there. I feel tired today, however. I hate how surgery takes away stamina for daily life and activities. I don’t think I am excessively active normally, so it seems…
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Dueling Journeys
Here’s a timeline of my journey to become Zander: Age 4 – I vividly remember sort of waking up and becoming conscious of myself as a person, a male person. I started choosing my own clothes and toys and I remember loving Spider-Man and other superheroes. Age 8 – My parents bought me a pink…
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Disappointment
One of the greatest joys in life for me is concerts. I love music and live music is the absolute best part of music. And that live music doesn’t even need to be concerts. I enjoy any kind of live music, even people singing at festivals, first Fridays, etc. There is not much in life…
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Daily Prompt 7/23/24
I have not kept the tradition of abuse and the silencing/dismissal of children as inhuman and incapable of reasonable thought. Looking back, I can see that this is the thread of my upbringing that I have needed to pull for years. This is something that has never disappeared and they both continue to treat me…
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Healing
The blockage is still there inside me. I am not sure why or what it relates to, but I am starting to feel that there is a trauma that is unacknowledged, unspoken, and definitely in my way. It’s taking away everything I enjoy like writing, and even the optional lacrosse practices that I committed to…
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Daily Prompt 6/24/24
Spirituality is important to me, but not in a way that everyone can relate to. I believe in a higher power, the universe, that guides us in a way that doesn’t always make sense. I believe that the Earth has a vibration to it that is part of the bigger universe and when you get…