Tag: translife
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Top Surgery Complete!
I’m so sorry that I’ve been MIA for the past couple of weeks. I had a lot to do to prep for top surgery last Tuesday and I was on pain meds up until yesterday afternoon. I had my one week post-op appointment today and everything went well. Almost everything but I will get into…
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Make it make sense
With my upcoming surgery, I find myself in my head a lot lately when I’m alone. Not my old self-doubt thoughts like “Is this what I really want? Is this really, 100% who I am?” Instead it’s been going like this-“What will it feel like to run without that extra weight I’ve had all this…
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Struggling
There’s a lot going on around me and there’s even more going on in my head. If I’m being honest, I’d have to say that I’m not exactly ok. I’m not really depressed or down. I am just not really into anything right now. I’m going through the motions of life mostly. I feel numb…
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Perspective change
I have discovered in the last year that just about anything can look terrible to you when you are looking at the bad side of things. Or sometimes all it takes is a little reframing to realize that you are thinking too much about the negatives of a situation and not considering the positives at…
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Deep thoughts
I’m still thinking about Oppenheimer deep in my brain. It was so intense and there were some parts that I understood so deep in my soul. There were things that scared me and made me feel better and made me wish I was still in the military, even though I was over it by the…
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I’m back, for real this time
The squatter has departed. For good this time. I feel relieved and like there’s much recovery to take place now. I went to a place mentally I haven’t been in for quite some time and it scared me. Thankfully I had a therapist appointment this morning and got to talk about it and all of…
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The End
The squatter leaves this weekend. Finally. And all the squatter’s disgusting stuff will be gone too. I wish it had happened much sooner. I’ve tried to be patient. I’ve tried to ignore the numbness inside me that prevents me from feeling the pain of remembering what life used to be. I’ve tried to be understanding…
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Happy Anniversary!
WordPress told me that today is my one year anniversary blogging. ROCK ON!! It’s been an entire year already. I remember when I started. My goal was to stop censoring myself and finally speak my mind without holding back. I was so afraid of offending people. Fast forward to today…I don’t hold back even on…