Tag: Mental Health
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The Past
Things have been tough here with our guests, Boy #1 and the Squatter. Boy #1 had a tough life. Growing up, he required so much attention and time. It was exhausting. He can still be exhausting. He fights with so much more than anyone I know. He has been diagnosed with so many things like…
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I don’t know anything anymore
Everything feels a little hurty right now. From all this stuff in the media, to hurting friends, to this squatter in our house. It all feels like so much sometimes. I don’t understand why everything has to feel so hard sometimes. Or why people can’t act normal. And mostly I just want to know how…
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Surviving
This situation is hard. But I am doing ok. I am frustrated but not freaking out. My body remembers the physical fear I used to feel. Sudden movements find me on edge often. I am annoyed, but not revealing anything about how I feel. Parents #2 texted my wife and I last night, thanking us…
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I am back!
It’s been a very busy last few days. On Friday my wife and had plans for antiquing, lunch out, a stop at an Amish bakery, and just a good, relaxing trip. It was a wonderful day. I got a great email from the mom of one of new soccer players, stating that she was excited…
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Work Ethic
Boy #1 has no work ethic. I hate saying it. I tried so hard with him. He’s always been…slow. Slow to follow directions, slow to take care of what he needs to, slow to grasp what the hell is going on around him. He got fired from his fast food job last night. At McDonald’s.…
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From my therapist
The main focus of my discussion with my therapist today was how to know when to take Ativan. I really should’ve taken it last Friday night for Girl’s party. I was so worked up and cranky. I would’ve felt so much better and not put myself through the hassle and fatigue of a panic attack.…
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I used to be better
I remember a time in my life, 2014-2016, when I could do the following: get up, shower, get dressed, get 4 kids up and dressed, get everyone to school/daycare, go to work, be productive all day at work, leave work, pick up the two at daycare, get home, change, get back on the road to…
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One Hundo
Today I reached 100 followers! I can’t even believe it! What began as a way for me to anonymously get used to speaking out with my voice and not censoring everything that was coming out of my mouth has turned into something bigger for me. I tried to have a blog so many times over…
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Party Day
This evening is Girl’s long awaited birthday party. I think I’m gonna need an Ativan for this thing. I am anxious about the following in no particular order:
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