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The Impossible Thing
Sometimes I get caught up in anticipation over something really small, like a phone call to make an appointment, or an errand that isn’t hard or even time consuming. But it feels impossible. Today I conquered my most recent impossible thing. I went to the eye doctor in early June and needed to order new…
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Controversy
I’ve learned a lot in my many years. I’ve probably forgotten more than I remember, but the things that stick to me the most are what I learn from watching and interacting with people. One of these things is that controversy scares me in a way that it doesn’t seem to scare other people. I…
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Raw Emotion
I have spent a large portion of my life thinking about emotions, mental health, and how to improve handling my emotions and staying mentally healthy. I have not been very successful with either of those for most of my life. I have struggled with rage, depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. I managed all of that…
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The Coin
I turned the large coin over repeatedly in my hand after she walked away. This moment didn’t feel real. I had just had a brief discussion with the Secretary of the Air Force right here at my work computer. I replayed her comments over and over in my mind as I continued to turn the…
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The Beginning
If you meet me in person, you would have assumptions of who I am. You would think that I was old, boring, and not really very much fun. But the truth is that I’m not any of those things. I have never felt my age and I know I’m not boring but I am excessively…
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Welcome to My Brain
hi! I’m glad to see you here! I’ve started 100 blogs I’ve abandoned after a couple posts because I get scared to share what’s really going on in my head. There’s a chance someone might realize I’m not actually who I pretend to be and I just can’t have that. So this is the blog…