Category: Mental Health
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On Defense
(This is from my draft folder that I never finished back in early January and posted. I thought it would be interesting to try to finish it up with more than 9 months of time since I first started writing the entry.) I had an appointment with my psychiatric nurse practitioner today. It was a…
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Make it make sense
With my upcoming surgery, I find myself in my head a lot lately when I’m alone. Not my old self-doubt thoughts like “Is this what I really want? Is this really, 100% who I am?” Instead it’s been going like this-“What will it feel like to run without that extra weight I’ve had all this…
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Odds and Ends
It’s been a nutty couple of weeks but it seems to be settling down now. Boy #3 is done with cross country, Girl is done with soccer and just has lacrosse now, and Boy #2 got his first choice college visit out of the way. Boy #1 seems to be struggling a bit at college,…
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Struggling
There’s a lot going on around me and there’s even more going on in my head. If I’m being honest, I’d have to say that I’m not exactly ok. I’m not really depressed or down. I am just not really into anything right now. I’m going through the motions of life mostly. I feel numb…
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Can’t FOcus
No matter what I do this week, I cannot find my focus AT ALL. Even right now, as I’m writing, I feel so foggy and like I’m not even in my own brain. I have a list of things to do and I can only open it to add more items. But I can’t get…
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Figuring it all out
My dad. He’s like a crazy puzzle. He is actually pretty crazy himself. I’ve never known anyone else who needs attention as much or is as selfish as my father. Every conversation with him is a one-sided, him blasting you with information, an old story, or some other dull explanation of a basic thing that…
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Perspective change
I have discovered in the last year that just about anything can look terrible to you when you are looking at the bad side of things. Or sometimes all it takes is a little reframing to realize that you are thinking too much about the negatives of a situation and not considering the positives at…
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Where have I been?
Last Thursday started as an average day, except I was really, really fatigued. I just remember feeling exhausted before I really got going that day. My wife and I ate lunch late because there was an event at her work that evening and we didn’t really have time to eat dinner before the event because…
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Daily Prompt 8/29/23
I blog because writing is therapeutic for me. I sort so many things out while I write and think things through. I chose blogging as the format for this type of writing because I was not yet ready to share myself with my real world. The idea of anonymously putting myself out there seemed so…