Category: Mental Health
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Cults
We love documentaries about cults. At this point we have watched more than I can even remember. Scientology, FDLS, Heaven’s Gate, Jonestown, Branch Davidians, NXIVM, Doc Antle, Children of God, Rajneeshpuram, we have seen it all. I think what fascinates me the most is how the leaders (who seem more like ordinary idiots than idols)…
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2 Hours
I just talked to my oldest for two hours. It was awesome. He’s such a good kid. We hadn’t talked in awhile and it’s so interesting to see how much he changes between conversations. He has done so much growing since high school graduation last year. He has walked a hard road. He had gotten…
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Suicide
(Please be aware that I talk very openly and candidly about my own experiences with suicide. If this is not something easy for you, please don’t continue reading or read with caution. This is not meant to hurt or trigger anyone else.) I understand that suicide is something that is very difficult to talk about…
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Validation of the Sadness
Tiny Buddha always seems to know exactly what I am going through and what I need to hear to feel better. Grieving has been hard this past year and a half since I realized and processed the biggest part of my truth. That day I finally slowed down and listened to what was screaming inside…
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Wisdom
I found this on social media the other day. It struck me because of my weird need to take responsibility for everything. I have tried to do all of this and burned myself out repeatedly doing everything but living my own life the way I want to live. I think it’s a trap a lot…
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Shame
My entire life has been full of shame. When I did anything wrong, even as a small fry, I got lectured about how I should feel “ashamed” of myself. That happened every single time that I did anything wrong, whether it was age appropriate. One of the very first times I can remember was when…
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Those Hard Things
Thinking about the deep things I avoid is kind of tough for me today. I feel myself wanting to avoid all of those things, even letting them in feels like too much right now. I know that I don’t need to pressure myself to finish that list today, but I want to get it done…
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Family…or not?
fam-i-ly noun a group of one or more parents and their children living together as a unit. “the family lived in a large house with a lot of land.” all the descendants of a common ancestor. “The house has been owned by the same family for 300 years.” adjective designed to be suitable for children…
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The Nothingness of Today
I gave myself a day with no expectations, nothing specific to do other than one scheduled appointment, help the kids cook dinner, and get out trash and recycling. I suppose that sounds like a lot, but it was spread out over the entire day. I also did some weeding around the flowers out front and…
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Self Care Monday
Today is the first weekday in 3 weeks that we don’t have our contractor and his team working on our bathroom. The lack of construction noise is so pleasant. I love our contractor and his team; they are GREAT people who I trust to do work when I had to leave for appointments and grocery…