Category: Memories
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Daily Prompt 9/8/23
Yes and no. I used to hold grudges against everyone for anything they did that felt bad to me. I am trying to heal and work through those grudges because they mostly hurt me in the long run. But honestly, I think the grudge I will never let go of is the boy who pushed…
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Daily Prompt 9/6/23
The farthest I’ve ever traveled from home was to the Middle East on deployments. There were several times where we had some down time and were able to get off base to see things outside of our very brown and tan world on the base. One of those times was in 2016. A few people…
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Daily Prompt 8/23/23
I am feeling empowered, in control, and really good overall. This is a good week so far. I have done so much processing in the last few days and my appointment with my therapist on Monday really helped me get through a lot. It feels good to have gotten to this point! I feel normal,…
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Once Upon a Time
There were parents who had children just because they thought they were supposed to. These parents thought the best way to raise these children was to direct every part of their lives and force them to be exactly who the parents thought they should be. There was no regard for who these children actually were…
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Another departure
My awesome barber/hair stylist and friend is leaving the area. It wasn’t what I wanted to hear. She recommended another person but…it’s not the same. I feel myself wanting to pull away and just let go completely. I don’t want to say goodbye. I don’t want to learn someone else. It’s hard not to feel…
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Daily Prompt 8/11/23
No. And you can’t make me! But seriously, I have lived my entire life with an internalized emergency preparedness plan. I doubt very much that most people are always looking for a way out of situations like I was. When I was in first grade, someone shot at our bus with a BB gun. They…
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I’m back, for real this time
The squatter has departed. For good this time. I feel relieved and like there’s much recovery to take place now. I went to a place mentally I haven’t been in for quite some time and it scared me. Thankfully I had a therapist appointment this morning and got to talk about it and all of…
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The End
The squatter leaves this weekend. Finally. And all the squatter’s disgusting stuff will be gone too. I wish it had happened much sooner. I’ve tried to be patient. I’ve tried to ignore the numbness inside me that prevents me from feeling the pain of remembering what life used to be. I’ve tried to be understanding…
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My therapist is leaving but…
I have reconnected with the one I had before! We had our first session last week and it went really well. I was so worried about contacting her because she left counseling completely when she left the place I was going last year. But then 6 months later, I found her again and she was…