Tag: ptsd
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Neighborhood spy
I am hyper vigilant and have been for awhile. I’ve been told it’s related to PTSD. But it has turned me into a neighborhood spy. I can tell you all about our surrounding neighbors because I notice everything. I never intended to spy on them and it’s not like I stare out the window all…
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Stepping Back
When I first started thinking about retiring from the Air Force, I had so many ideas about what I wanted to do. A huge part of me was considering applying for this recall that would give me two more years in the Air Force. I felt like I needed that security blanket, like I wasn’t…
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Wisdom
I actually learned this a couple years ago and when I can stick to it, I feel so much happier. Forcing things has always led me to chase things that aren’t meant for me. When I’ve gotten those things, it doesn’t do anything for me. Or I realized that the path I was on was…
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Weekend Round Up
This weekend has been a whirlwind of adventure. I’m over 40,000 words on NaNoWriMo and my story is shaping up nicely. I will be done early and I will definitely be over 50K words. It’s always amazing when I can actually write an entire story like this. I have too many unfinished projects on my…
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Processing
When I first saw that I got 100% from the VA, permanent and total, I was in shock. Then I was happy. Then more shock. Then happiness again. I think I have been on this rollercoaster the entire time since I found out. I got the packet yesterday and read the entire thing twice. It…
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Now I love the VA
I was screwing around on my computer last night for no real reason. Looking up that kid from the daycare, I guess. I realized that I had just given up on my VA claim about a month or so ago and I stopped checking. I went from checking twice a day to checking twice a…
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Self Care Monday
Today is the first weekday in 3 weeks that we don’t have our contractor and his team working on our bathroom. The lack of construction noise is so pleasant. I love our contractor and his team; they are GREAT people who I trust to do work when I had to leave for appointments and grocery…
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Fall
September is quickly speeding towards us. With it comes pretty leaves, cooler weather, football, pumpkins, Halloween, and all the things I love. I love fall and winter and spring too. Summer isn’t really my thing, though, so I am always eager for fall especially. I lived in the Southeast for a long time and fall…
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We’re all beautifully damaged
As I started on my journey after retiring from the military, I spent a lot of time thinking about my VA claim. It’s a ridiculous process where, after 20+ years in the military and going to the doctor just enough to take care of the most painful things, you have to fight for everything that…