Tag: adhd
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The Bags I Carry
We are all carrying way too many bags of crap around in our hearts and souls. This is an analogy that I always liked because I felt so heavy for so long because I was carrying the weight of the world in my bags. I have always been an intense thinker and sometimes anxiety-ridden worrier…
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ADHD Sucks
I have been struggling to get things started lately. It’s so frustrating. And just like always, I stumbled across something that pointed out how ADHD brains work that made me feel validated. It’s not that I’m just some lazy, procrastinating idiot. I’m not stupid either. But sometimes my brain just fights me so hard when…
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Pushing Through
This week has been a huge up and down sort of week. I don’t know why it’s been so crazy but it’s also been interesting. I feel like I have learned more about myself this week than anything. I have been moderately productive at a time when I start to feel like I can’t get…
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Take Your Pills
So I’m watching this documentary about college students taking ADHD pills to get through college. My mind is blown. I have read articles about this, but I guess I didn’t understand how prevalent it really is. The way that these students are talking about this is crazy. It’s so interesting to hear these students describe…
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Future plans
Today I have a phone call later with an admissions person from a program I’m considering applying to soon. I was approved for a program with the VA that allows me to participate in a program that the VA will pay for and I will also get a housing stipend. It’s called VRRAP and that…
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Why Me?
So often when I think about the question “Why me”, I think about it in a very negative way. Like someone upset with what’s been done to them but some psychopath or why they have to deal with an illness or condition that sucks. For a long time I have been trying to reframe the…
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Tomorrow feels scary
I have two appointments tomorrow. One is with my psychiatric nurse practitioner who prescribes my meds. And within these last three months, my meds aren’t working as well as they used to. My attention span hasn’t been what it was on adderall previously. I haven’t had an increase in forever and the next increase puts…
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The Kid Life
My wife and I spent the gloomy afternoon playing the Classic NES. It was just as fun as I remember, although I used to be a lot better. “Hours of a misspent youth,” as I call it. Sometimes you just need to shake things up and do something when it’s too gross to get outside.…
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Fall
September is quickly speeding towards us. With it comes pretty leaves, cooler weather, football, pumpkins, Halloween, and all the things I love. I love fall and winter and spring too. Summer isn’t really my thing, though, so I am always eager for fall especially. I lived in the Southeast for a long time and fall…
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