Category: Raw
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New Year’s Eve/Welcome 2024
It’s almost my year! I still have that feeling that 2024 is my year! 2023 had its ups and downs, but I definitely have felt so much personal growth this year. I was able to enforce boundaries in person with people, and I learned so much about my relationship with my father and how I…
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Daily Prompt 12/31/23
Perfect prompt for NYE! I feel nostalgic about the 80s, the 90s, news stories about the MIddle East, toys I grew up with, and shows and movies from my childhood. You know, the things that make everyone feel nostalgic! I feel nostalgic for the times when I thought I could do anything or go anywhere…
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Taylor Swift, Swifties, and their enemies
I have to start with this…I have casually listened to T-Swift for years. I was behind the times in more recent years, but I never really found myself annoyed with her or with any really negative opinion of her. I remember the Kanye mess in 2009 and my older two were really annoyed by her…
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Boy #1…revisited
This morning started out with some tough love from me to Boy #1. I found out things I had suspected and was updated on other things that I had no idea about. Only one of these things made me feel a positive emotion. I like the idea of him being in a band. He just…
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A mistake that really could’ve hurt
I made a huge mistake this morning while taking my morning meds. I have three pill sorters because I have morning medicine, night medicine, and right before bed medicine. I’ve had two of three for awhile now and they were a little gross. So I bought more. I filled them yesterday like I always do,…
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Showing up for myself
Since I started back with my original therapist, we’ve been deep-diving into things, and lately it’s been with my parents. Mostly my father. There’s been new things this year that he’s done, and I’ve also had realizations that we are likely approaching some level of cognitive decline with him. He seems to be having “senior…
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Better-ish (written several days ago)
I have been allowing myself to sleep in this week so that I can recover and feel better. Last night I felt like a million bucks. This morning, not so much. Although now that I have been up for awhile, I do feel better. Boy #3 had a band concert last night that we were…
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Disgusting
I am very ill. We found out this afternoon that I have covid. Then we found out a little bit later that my wife also has it. Boy #3 was really sick over the weekend so he’s probably is getting over it. Boy #2 is tired and cranky so he’s probably fighting it off. Girl…
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what did I do??
In the middle of the night last night I woke up with extreme pain in my arm. During the day yesterday it felt a little sore and like I couldn’t straighten it out completely. But it was just a slight problem, an annoyance. But in the middle of the night, the pain was so bad…
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Daily Prompt 12/8/23
I could do less thinking. Not intellectual thinking, but catastrophizing thinking. It’s so easy to get caught up in thinking about the worst thing that could happen and then everything spirals down from there. I try really hard not to get stuck in that worst case scenario game, but sometimes my brain does not care…