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I Am Evil
I went off on my teenager today. We were traveling back from our trip and he was whining about being hungry. Now, there’a million and one reasons why this temper tantrum set me off today. 1. He CHOSE not to eat much this morning. Like, he did not want what was there and did not…
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travel
Today we are leaving on a weekend trip. The place we are going is about 45 minutes from where I grew up and where some of my extended family lives. It’s where all of my grandparents are buried and where my parents owned two different houses in two different cities/towns. It’s where my elementary school,…
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Question of the Day
One of the things that makes me who I am is this intense curiosity I was born with. I remember asking why all the time when I was young, like beyond the normal stage of asking why to everything. It was like this crazy thirst to find out more. I have always needed to know…
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Hard stuff accomplished…
So I just had that hard conversation with my dad. It went so well. He went first and talked about how he didn’t tell me something he wanted to do when we last visited was important to him and how he wanted to get there early. He just said they wanted to go early, which…
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Closure Not Needed?
This one hit me over the head yesterday. I always considered closure important and something that I needed to get over things. I was always upset when someone just stopped talking to me completely and I didn’t get all the answers I needed. I felt like I couldn’t just let things go and I was…
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Vivid Dreams
I slept terribly last night. I take Clonidine for nightmares because they used to be so bad that I didn’t want to go to sleep. I didn’t want to take any medication for a long time because I wasn’t sure how I would react to it. But eventually I wasn’t sleeping well most of the…
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Two years ago
I lived almost a thousand miles from where I live now. I was finalizing my retirement from the Air Force. I was deciding what the rest of my life was going to look like. I was having horrific nightmares every night. I was scared of everything. I had recently learned how to manage my panic…
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Weird is Cool!!
I used to be afraid of my weird. But at the same time, for me, my weird was out there for everyone to see. I wasn’t like everyone else. And when I was really small, that didn’t matter to me. I didn’t care what everyone else told me I was supposed to be, I was…
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Untitled Drama
That whole thing with my cousin’s wedding got into my mind because of something else going on presently. I am still close with my ex’s family. They are still my family and we have all made an effort to stay in touch and celebrate holidays and big family events. Although I wasn’t sure that even…