Category: Mental Health
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I am tired
This weird thing with my dad is exhausting me emotionally. Everything was going really well with us until he asked if I could just work on things with my mom because she was almost jealous that he and I were talking so much and doing so much better. Why would he do that? Why would…
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Protecting Children
I’ve been thinking about how we raise children around the world a lot lately, for a bunch of different reasons. Partly it’s parents that are overly involved and setting the course for their children’s lives without considering what the child really wants to do. Partly it’s because some parents don’t care who their children are;…
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Another Day, Another Therapy Appointment
Yesterday I had a therapist appointment. I go twice a month right now, but I may increase that over the winter if I need to. I kept it a little more surface level for most of the appointment, although we did talk about some of the deep stuff at the beginning. The biggest take away…
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To Fight…or not
Seasonal affective disorder has me living the life of GoT Stark House: Last night felt bad for some reason. It was like my emotions were all mixed up in a sad way. I have noticed as I heal that I am not very knowledgeable about my emotions. I always thought I was good at emotions…
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What IF?
I try not to dwell on the what ifs in my life because it can lead me down a crappy road. But sometimes it’s interesting to think about how one small change early in life could’ve set me up in an entirely different way than what actually happened. One of the biggest what ifs that…
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Dear World
My entire life has been shaped by the world outside of me up until recently. It’s only been within the last year that I have been able to take control of my own life and start living as I want to. I was brought up to be more concerned about what my neighbors think than…
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Another Book to Be!
I started preparing for NaNoWriMo today. Last year I wrote a very rough draft of a book in the first half of November. I love that story still. I started to reread it a few weeks ago and it’s even better than I remember! It needs a ton of work to be a decent book…
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Closure Not Needed?
This one hit me over the head yesterday. I always considered closure important and something that I needed to get over things. I was always upset when someone just stopped talking to me completely and I didn’t get all the answers I needed. I felt like I couldn’t just let things go and I was…
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That painful conversation
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about what I want to talk about with my dad for that relationship class we are doing. I am going with the infantilizing thing, but there’s a lot to it. I want to make sure I get as much as possible in the conversation and I hope he…