Category: The Real Me
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Somebody else’s life…
I love Boy George and Culture Club. I have loved them since I was about 6 years old. The whole idea of a boy dressed like a girl didn’t even strike me as strange. I liked their songs, their voices, all of their music. As I’ve gotten older, that hasn’t changed, although I understand so…
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How to be Human
These are just a few of the things spinning around in my head these last two years after military retirement and figuring out who I really am after 20 years of being mostly the same as I was and the same as everyone around me. Learning not to fear failure and not being who I…
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Crowds
For years I have struggled with crowds. But sometimes I can handle it. There’s never really been any way I can accurately predict when I will suddenly be unable to handle a crowd. I have been in huge crowds at Disney World and been fine. I’ve been in a smallish crowd in a living room…
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ADHD Sucks
I have been struggling to get things started lately. It’s so frustrating. And just like always, I stumbled across something that pointed out how ADHD brains work that made me feel validated. It’s not that I’m just some lazy, procrastinating idiot. I’m not stupid either. But sometimes my brain just fights me so hard when…
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Bohemian Rhapsody
“People are always asking me what my lyrics mean. Well I say what any decent poet would say if you dared ask him to analyse his work:if you see it, darling, then it’s there.” “True poetry is for the listener.” Freddie Mercury was a genius in every way. I truly admire him and love his…
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Pushing Through
This week has been a huge up and down sort of week. I don’t know why it’s been so crazy but it’s also been interesting. I feel like I have learned more about myself this week than anything. I have been moderately productive at a time when I start to feel like I can’t get…
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To Fight…or not
Seasonal affective disorder has me living the life of GoT Stark House: Last night felt bad for some reason. It was like my emotions were all mixed up in a sad way. I have noticed as I heal that I am not very knowledgeable about my emotions. I always thought I was good at emotions…
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Changes
I’ve been blogging for almost 3 months. I have noticed a lot of changes in that time. I am getting so much more comfortable with speaking up for what matters to me and figuring out who I am after a lifetime of putting on a stage production called “My life as it’s been dictated to…
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Dear World
My entire life has been shaped by the world outside of me up until recently. It’s only been within the last year that I have been able to take control of my own life and start living as I want to. I was brought up to be more concerned about what my neighbors think than…