I’ve watched this documentary on Prime a few times now. It’s called Bad Faith and it talks about how to religious right came to be and how they used Trump to achieve their goals, mainly around abortion currently. Overall it’s a very informative thing that I would recommend everyone take a look at. The reason I’ve watched it more than once is because there is so much information that I cannot possibly digest it all at once.
The first time I watched it, I was fired up and ready to run for office. But the last time I watched it, I felt depressed and kind of hopeless, to be honest. It was super sad to see that the movement started originally because of racism and the Supreme Court ruling that schools could not segregate in the 1970s. There were private religious schools and colleges that were still doing this. IN THE 1970s! Wait, I was born in the 1970s. I still struggle to understand how I was born in the same decade that religious people were openly discriminating against Black students. WTF!
Racism makes me sad in my soul. That’s the only way I can describe it. I feel physical pain in my core when I encounter racism. I cannot tolerate it around me. People in the Air Force were racist and I called them out. I do not want that shit around me. One of my good friends was from Texas and he made some stupid hand gesture that I had no idea what it was. I asked him what the hell he was doing that for and he said, “You know, it’s the triple K.” I remember exactly what I said. “If that’s not some Texas sports league reference and you are talking about fuckers in white hoods, you better fucking knock it off and never do that shit around me again. I am not cool with that one bit.” He said he was sorry and asked if I still wanted to be his friend. I was honest with him that I was rethinking our friendship because I am just not ok with that.
I started following a bunch of Black content creators on social media because I want to know more about how they’ve experienced life and I want to support them. I want to be aware of things that I can’t see and what micro-aggressions I need to avoid. Reading their content and reflecting on what they write without expecting any labor from them has been the most informative. But like everything, I love learning about people so this is a great way to find more people to learn about. But I want to be a better person, one who doesn’t let people get away unchallenged on their racism. One who confronts their own biases and moves on from the bullshit racist world I grew up in.
I don’t understand how anyone in the past could use religion to justify enslaving people and/or treating them as less than human. It makes no sense to me at all, because everyone is the same on the inside. Although our genes make all of us different and unique. So that’s even more reason to understand that we are all human and all deserve basic respect and kindness. I don’t want to understand, to be honest. I can’t help but judge anyone who defines themselves as a Christian nationalist. That’s pretty much declaring yourself to be racist, even though they don’t mention the white part out loud.
I want to make racism go away. I want to make it all stop and have a world where people don’t judge at all based on the color of a person’s skin. It’s the only way I know how to be.
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