A friend of mine posted on social media today that he’s having a hard time with this whole military retirement thing. Like he’s not sure if he’s done good enough as a commander and who is he without the military. This is the way most of us feel when it’s the end of our time in the military.
He was really successful most of the time. He had one rough spot where he didn’t excel at an opportunity that is really prestigious, although now it seems like they’ll take anyone, but I digress. He came home defeated from this thing and it took him awhile to get over it. But no one believed in him any less because he couldn’t do it. Sometimes a thing is just a game that a person can’t play properly because their brain won’t let them. This particular school is nothing but a game. I’ve seen wildly stupid people make it who should not have been able to do it. And I’ve seen several others who deserved it more not make it because it just didn’t suit them.
This guy has always been a rock star. And he’s having a problem with his sense of self worth being tied to a job that he happened to be very, very good at? He is also a good leader, a strong emotional support system for everyone, he gives great hugs and high fives to everyone no matter the gender, and he’s just an all around great guy.
He’s enough. He’s always been enough. And it has nothing to do with the job he did, how well he commanded, what he did well and/or messed up, or anything else. He is enough, just as he is.
Boy #1 has run into a huge snag with his whole college journey thing. His apartment application hasn’t been finalized and he’s supposed to move in today. He assured us that it would be ready on time and it’s unclear whether he misheard or misunderstood something or was led astray by the apartment people.
He melted down this morning and pulled me into a tornado of drama. I still don’t feel quite stable again. I have had so much stress lately and I don’t know how much more I can continue to add to that. I was extremely fragile earlier and it’s not exactly better, but I’ve got it under control. For now.
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