I made a huge mistake this morning while taking my morning meds. I have three pill sorters because I have morning medicine, night medicine, and right before bed medicine. I’ve had two of three for awhile now and they were a little gross. So I bought more. I filled them yesterday like I always do, prepped for last night and then this morning. My old ones were circles and the new ones are straight lines. I was excited to have a new sorter this morning for some reason, I guess I’ll blame age. I’m at the age where strange, adultish things are way more exciting than they should be.
So I grab my new sorter, dump the 4 pills in my hand and boom, gone! I close today’s lid and go about my day. I did not think anything of it until about 10 minutes later when I realized that I didn’t remember putting an adderall back for this afternoon. One adderall, one B-complex, and one pepcid for first thing in the morning, one adderall for the afternoon.
Shit. So yeah, I took 40mgs of adderall this morning when I should’ve only taken 20mg. I braced myself for something, although I wasn’t sure what would happen. I once drank a big cup of Pepsi and took adderall about 25 minutes later. BIG mistake. I thought my chest was going to explode. It took about an hour for me to feel better, but it was really rough for awhile there.
I felt jittery about 45 minutes later. Not anxious, just jittery. That lasted for about 5 minutes. Then my stomach got upset and I felt slightly hazy. Overall I felt very chill and relaxed, and the jitters went away quickly. Once my stomach felt better after about 30 minutes of feeling off, I realized that this was exactly what it has felt like every time she upped my dose. It feels bad for a little bit at first, and then it’s better.
I must say that my focus is really, REALLY awesome today. When my wife went to get her hair cut, I made a meal plan, grocery shopped and put everything away, took care of the dishes, and made sure the kids brought the water jugs. My focus overall has been better lately, but this was unparalleled today. I wonder if I can increase my dose at all at my next appointment. I definitely don’t want to be taking so much that I am above the recommended limit, so I will never, ever do that intentionally and I’ve already got a plan to ensure I don’t do it again, but if I can up my dose at all, I do think that might help some.
I’m not sure what I was expecting to happen, but I guess I was worried about something drastic, like my heart would race and I would have tremors or something. But nothing like that happened at all. I did keep myself calm and I did not get too excited about anything while I was experiencing the discomfort. She told me when she prescribed the adderall that I may see an increase in my heart rate. I did not with the first prescription, nor any of the increases she had prescribed.
My complacency with medication has been cured for sure, I will be much more careful tomorrow and every day after that. I’ve already moved one of tomorrow’s doses to today’s spot, so I won’t be able to dump four pills into my hand like I did today. I’ll just keep moving one pill over after the current spot is empty, to prevent myself from getting all the pills first thing in the morning, when I am clearly not thinking straight. I feel a little dumb for doing this, but I know it was simply a mistake. Thankfully it didn’t hurt more.
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