Zander's Inside Voice

I feel like I intentionally find some strange, obscure way to interpret daily prompts but for this one I have to say the most ambitious DIY project I’ve taken on is healing myself. It is true that I see a therapist regularly, but that amounts to only 2 hours a month, maybe 3 if you count the session I attend with Boy #3 because he doesn’t want to talk to her alone. I don’t mind, because it helps me understand him a little better. I love that he trusts me completely and has started opening up to her and talking about his anxiety and anger more.

But working on me has been tough. Trying to address the things I didn’t want to deal with when they happened is so hard. There’s a reason it was all pushed down so far I didn’t even remember it was there. It was too hard. But slowly I am tackling all of these things and when applicable, repairing the relationships that matter the most to me. Or sometimes it has meant cutting someone loose. I don’t have to be kind to everyone if they hurt me and don’t seem to care. I no longer need to pretend that I’m this nice person who likes everyone. If you hurt me on purpose and showed no remorse, then it’s over, even if we were just social media friends. You don’t get to be inside of my life anymore. That’s so much better for my mental health and healing!